Why on earth am I starting a blog? As if I have nothing else to do? For many years now, when things have happened to me, around me, because of me, I have been compelled to write about it. Why? Who cares right? Because I believe that most people think they are alone in the situations in their lives. I believe people go through stuff both good and bad and think that no one else can understand or relate or connect. Especially the hard stuff. When I go through a trial, my gut reaction is to believe I’m the only one who struggles in this particular area. But I know this isn’t true at all.
We all live different lives but most of our experiences really are very normal. The rough places in my life are not extraordinary – lots of people have similar rough places. But NO ONE EVER TALKS ABOUT IT! Don’t we all want to paint a very successful, happy picture of our lives to show those around us? Don’t we all want our friends, family, and neighbors to think the very best of us? I gave up on that concept a long time ago. And I’m here to tell you that life is SO much better when you can just be yourself. So here I am! The good, the bad, the ridiculous, the pathetic, the insane, the amazing, and the tragic. When you don’t have to hide who you are, you don’t have to concern yourself with insincere relationships. When you stop pretending, you can tap into your authentic self which is the very best version of YOU that YOU can ever be. I believe we were all created on purpose for a purpose.
So…I’ve wanted to write. But who has the time? I work 30 hours a week. I have 3 very busy children. I have a husband who works his tail off to provide for us. We have a home. We have activities. By the time I have a moment to sit down and write I am so dang tired my eyes cross and I can’t think. Circumstances in our family’s life, which I’m sure you will read about later, has caused us to make some pretty big decisions.
I have recently put in my notice at the job that I love with all of my heart. This summer I will stay home with my kiddos for the first time in mine and their lives. There is no word in the English language that properly explains how flippin’ excited I am about this! This coming fall my oldest will be in High School (so many tears…), my youngest will be in Pre-K (and yes more tears…), and my 1st grader and I will be diving headfirst into the world of home schooling!
These are some major changes for our family but we know they are exactly what we are supposed to be doing at this stage in our lives. These changes also open up time for ME to be able to focus on my personal ministry goals. I have a story and I love to talk about it. I love to talk about it not because I think I’ve done something incredible because that couldn’t be further from the truth. GOD has done incredible things through the hot mess I have created that is called my life. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to tell people about the goodness of God, the faithfulness of God, the grace and mercy of God. So now I have found the time I need to write. I have found the time I need to share my story. I have found the time I need to reach out to others who have walked similar paths and show them the hope that I have in Jesus. Lots of good stuff happening here!